Friday, January 31, 2014

Someone is 5!

So I am only about 3 weeks late with this post...honestly, are you surprised?!
Back on the 12th my very spunky, sassy and smart girl celebrated a big birthday. 5!
Was I ready? No!
She is my baby. My girl, And she tells me that she likes that our
 house has 2 girls and 2 boys.  I have to agree.
I feel like it was just yesterday that she was this beautiful little girl.

And now she is my beautiful big girl.
Everyday she surprises me.  The conversations she holds with people amaze me.  She may be 5 but people continually tell us that they are surprised by her age because of the things she knows and the way she speaks. To hear it once is a treat but to hear it over and over again is a blessing.
H.B.Nanna is my loving girl who does her best to treat her family like gold. Like any child her age, she has her moments. She has her fits and tears but the good absolutely outweighs the bad.
Last year she was diagnosed with a gluten allergy that she is so accepting of. She is always quick to ask if something has gluten in it before she eats it. She has handled our move {to a new rental home} closer to the beach like a pro.  She loves her new bedroom and being able to hear the ocean first thing in the morning. She is becoming more understanding of her brothers sensory issues and knowing that sometimes Mommy and Daddy have to give just a little extra attention to her brother. It is things like this that make this little girl so awesome and wiser then her years.
This year she is looking forward to playing t-ball, her 2nd dance recital, playing soccer in the fall and of course starting kindergarten in September.  Am I ready for all of
H.B.Nanna, Mommy, Daddy and Jake are so lucky to have you in our lives and we love with our whole hearts. Happy {Belated} Birthday to our cutie patootie!

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Let It Snow!

Snow Day Fun!

Wearing your pajamas inside out 2 nights in a row has to make snow, right?!

Brr Cold Morning Smiles :)

When it is too cold to go out in the snow {-12 is too cold for us!} 
we bring the snow in. A great sensory idea but of course 
{not surprised at all} the Boy didn't want to touch it.

Nap time for Brother is craft time for Sister. 
A win win for Mommy! 

All Over the Place

I feel like my life is spinning. Not out of control but just spinning round and round.  I don't know when it will stop.  I find myself trying to stop it. To slow down and enjoy the little things but it is proving harder then I thought.

As I sit here and type, there is a lovely coating of snow outside.  Snow that H.B.Nanna wore her pajamas inside out {for 2 nights!} for. The Boy is taking his nap. H.B.Nanna is sitting next to me busy making bracelets on her rainbow loom that she got for Christmas. Laundry is going and there is a sweet treat cooling on the stove.  And while I should be soaking in all of this, my brain can't help but think of all things I could be doing or places I could be. And I HATE it.

I read of all these inspirational Mommy blogs and share them with friends. But the truth is, sometimes I wanted to yell at the writer and tell her she is crazy.  I want to be the Mom that doesn't care about the mess.  The one that spends hours on the floor playing with her child and still manages to make dinner and have the laundry kept up. The Mom that is always doing fun projects with her children. The Mom that is always out and about with her children and has date nights with her husband. I don't like to say that I can't be this Mom because I have a child with special needs.  {Shit, I hate that term - but that's for another day} But sometimes its the truth. And I don't like it.

Don't get me wrong, I love the Boy with all of my heart and I wouldn't change a thing about him. He is so smart, funny and the most loveable boy I've ever known. He has changed my life in ways that are unimaginable. My heart hurts for H.B.Nanna because almost daily she is told to wait a minute or that she can't do something because of her brother.  I know that every older sibling experiences this but it so much more for her because I never know when the Boy is going to have a sensory meltdown.

I know I am not the first Mom with 2 children to say they struggle with the day to day.  I don't expect sympathy or stories of "when my children were younger" because that isn't why I wrote this. I think as parents we are supposed to encourage one another.  Let each other know that it's ok to have bad days. It's ok to have days where you have feel like you have failed your children but they were fed, changed and are happy so in reality to your children, it was probably a good day. Offer a shoulder to cry on and not judge each other for the way we do or don't do things. We should listen to advice from each other {whether you chose to follow it is another story} because chances are we each have a friend who has been through whatever is troubling us. It's ok because we are all in this together. We all love being Moms and instead of working against each other, we should be working together. Happy Snow Day Moms!!

Saturday, January 4, 2014

Trying To Slow Down

We all have those days.  Sometimes they are smooth and peaceful. Other days they are so rip your hair out, is it 5 o'clock yet terrible. But we all have them. We all survive and move on.

I try to remember that they are only little for a short time. That the good outweighs the bad. That I need to slow down and enjoy the little things {the cuddles, the conversations, the milestones} because it a blink they are going to be leaving for college.  Some days that is so hard. I let the need to get things done overwhelm me. I forget to enjoy the little things and stress over what I didn't get done that day. It happens to me and I know it happens to you.

I want to say that it gets easier but it doesn't. I want to say that I am learning to slow down but I can't. I think I don't know how! I start planning all of the things I need to do during the 2 hour nap window {assuming it's a good nap day} as soon as I wake up.  It usually includes showering, dishes, laundry, etc. I never manage to find time for the fun things I want to do. But I need to learn how to do this.

You are probably wondering how I am finding time to write this if I claim to have no time. One child is sleeping, the other is play in her room and I promised myself I would blog before I showered. Mission accomplished. Now if I could only have more days like this!

How do you find time to do all the things you want to do? Not just the things you need to do.

Friday, January 3, 2014

Disney Then & Now

Same dress just two years apart.
 November 2011
I can't get over how tiny she was!

December 2013
My almost 5 year old!

Thursday, January 2, 2014

2014 Is Here!

Here we are 2 days into 2014 and I am actually blogging.  Shocking for both you and me. Trust me.

It has been nearly 3 months since my last blog post and even that was a random post in a good amount of time.  This blog is such a struggle for me.  I want to blog and share my life with you but sometimes the pressure gets to me. I don't have dreams of becoming this big fancy blog but I would love to just blog more regularly. Hell, I don't even want to put the money out for one of those fancy layouts with buttons and crap.  I don't want to close off the blog because I started this as a way to document the birth of H.B.Nanna five years ago.  But I need a place to talk, vent and not worry about being judged by anyone. Yes, I know there is some website that bashes Mommy Bloggers and I am sure that if it ever happened to me I would have hurt feelings but the thing is, I need to start blogging more regularly for that to happen!!

I don't like New Year's Resolutions {how may times have you heard that in the last week?!} but I do want to set some goals for myself.  I want to hold myself accountable instead of laughing about the things I wanted to do this year six months down the road. We've all been there. done that.  So with that, I present my 2014 goals.

1 - Make more memories with my children than we know what to do with. It doesn't always have to be something big, little things make great memories too!

2 - Take more pictures with my children.  I am always taking the pictures so maybe 2014 will be the year of "selfies" for me!

3 - Become so very educated in gluten free eating and sensory processing disorder to give both my children the best that I can. H.B.Nanna was diagnosed with a gluten intolerance in the summer of 2013 and The Boy was diagnosed with Sensory Processing Disorder in the fall of 2013.

4 - Stop defending myself to others for the choices that we have made as a family. In the last year I feel like I have spent more time defending the things we do and the choices we have made. 

5 - With that said....I am going to be more accepting of people and their choices and decisions. I may not always agree with them but just like you may not agree with mine, I am going to learn to accept them and move on.

6 - Find more time for me. I love being a stay at home mom and I am forever grateful to my husband for working so hard to make it possible. I need to learn how to "step out of the office" and not feel guilty about it.  I struggle so hard with this.

7 - Spend more quality time with my husband. We've struggled with this lately and it has had an affect on both of us. 

8 - I want to blog more. I want to get more creative with hair accessories. I want to read more books. I want to spend more time with my awesome beach friends and their families.

I think that these are all pretty awesome, obtainable goals. If I can actually start and maintain some {if not all} of them, I think I am setting 2014 up to be a freakin awesome year. I hope that you will continue to read along on this exciting journey of motherhood and wifeness {is that even a word?!} that 2014 will take me on.

Happy New Year!!