Sunday, June 9, 2013

A New Chapter

I believe the saying goes when one chapter ends another begins. Or something like that. This week I close an important chapter in my life to start a new.  I am excited. I am nervous. I am scared.  But I am EXCITED.
For 6 years {1 month shy of 7 years} I have worked for a clinical research company on some really exciting clinical trials. And Thursday I will be logging off for the last time to spend my time with my babies.
It was a difficult decision but one we have been tossing around for awhile. I never imagined that I would be a stay-at-home Mom. I didn't think I would ever not want to work. But after discussing the logistics of it, it seems like it is really going to work for our family.
I am going to enjoy the time with my babies {they aren't really babies anymore..} but I know I will miss the people I work with.  I won't miss the stress of deliverables. I'll miss the paychecks and the "atta' boys" but the hugs and "I love you's" will make up for that.

It is hard walking away from something you like to do.  I can't say I LOVE it because I didn't always.  I think like is more realistic. I went to college to be a restaurant manager. And ended up working longer in clinical research then I ever worked in a restaurant.  Funny how that works, isn't it?!
I can't say that I am walking away forever. And we haven't really talked about how long I won't be working.  I can say {at least in my mind} it is for a few years.  I want to be a Room Mom. I want to chaperone field trips. I want to host play dates. I want to be able to take care of my babies when they are sick. I'm not thinking it is going to be easy. I know I will get frustrated. I am sure I will feel like I have no time for myself.  I am not thinking that this means my house is going to be sparkly clean. Nope. I am trying to be realistic about it. But I am really looking forward to what the future holds for me and my family.

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