Saturday, October 5, 2013

Happy To Me!

Here we are on the 5th of October {I think I am still in denial that summer is over even if it is 85 degrees today} and that means my birthday and my favorite season of the year. I had some time this morning to reflect on the past year, where I am in my life and to think about the year ahead. Since the Boy is napping and H.B.Nanna is on the couch with a fever I have some time to actually sit down and blog. It is so funny to me how birthdays change once you are a parent.  Instead of spending the day out and about, eating and drinking at fun places I am home with a sick child. 

Now don't get me wrong, I love my family and our life here at the beach...but if this morning was any indication of how the next year will be, I am in for it!!  H.B.Nanna has had a fever since late Thursday afternoon and last night was the worst. Like two hours of sleep {if that's what you call three people in a bed and the middle person ,ahem child, is sleeping sideways!} and we were up and mulling about the house at 6am. The Boy started crying to get out of his crib sometime around 5am but I just. couldn't. do. it.

This past year has been exciting/challenging/trying/you name it for me. I adjusted {who am I kidding, I still am adjusting} to being a Mommy to two adorable children. I held the fort down during more then one international business trip for Stephen. Stephen and I had our first "no children allowed" vacation to one of my favorite places. We purged like hell and moved six miles closer to the beach and I have built some really great friendships with some girls here at the beach.

I never imagined this was going to be how my life would be.  I didn't think I would not be working {by choice} and living at the beach. I didn't think that I would have a daughter and a son. I knew I would marry the right man when I met him and I am very grateful for Stephen's Myspace message about my dog.

The next year is going to have lots of ups and downs and I am trying to prepare mentally for them as much as I can. Stephen will be traveling more but I knew that it was going to be happening. We are taking the children on their first plane ride to Disney World.  H.B.Nanna knows we are going but not that we are flying. I can't wait to see her face when she finds out!! The Boy was just diagnosed with Sensory Processing Disorder and we are going to face some challenges in the next year as we learn how to help him. We are still trying to understand it ourselves and once we have a better handle on it I will be sure to blog about it.

I have to say that overall this getting older thing isn't that terrible.  Happy to me!

Thursday, August 29, 2013

The other day my husband went for a run on the beach.  Nothing unusual for him since he does it most every beach day we have. When he came back he seemed a little perturbed. He didn't say why until later that evening.
 
Now what I am about to write is a topic that can cause lots of negative feelings and cause people to be confrontational.  It is not my intention.
 
When my husband and I finally had time to talk without 4 year old and 1 year old interruptions, he opened up about what had happened on his run. It isn't so much of what happened but what he saw. A pregnant woman standing on the beach smoking. Openly. For all to see.
 
He was angry with the woman.  Did she know what she was doing to her child? How could someone be so selfish? Yes, he understands that smoking is like an addiction that some people can't get over. But I think what he was struggling with was if the woman knew she was pregnant (which clearly she did) why wasn't she doing anything and everything she could to stop?
 
Now my husband is not confrontational.  He lets things go, sometimes things he shouldn't. And he obviously didn't know this woman or her situation and he didn't say anything. He just kept running.
 
The following day he posted some pretty strong words on Facebook about what he saw. He knew it would upset people but he also knew what the woman smoking was doing to her child. He didn't receive much feedback (negative or positive) in fact he received very few likes. Pictures of our children or a healthy meal he has prepared receive more likes and comments. Someone commented and asked if maybe he was secretly on that show "What Would You Do?" and maybe he had failed. I was a little taken back by the lack of response from his post. Do people not care or are they just afraid to speak up?  It seems like we are eager to voice our opinions about a lot of things these days so why not about this?
 
We aren't smokers. Never have been. In fact, I can count very few family members or friends of mine who smoke. I think that people are smarter now about things. I just hope that this woman realizes what she is doing to her innocent child and does something about it. There is so much information and help available that she doesn't have any excuses.
 
And on a lighter note, what is a post without pictures?!
 
Handsome.
 
Apparently we have entered the
"stick the tongue out for pictures" phase.  

Friday, August 9, 2013

Summer Fun To Do List Update

So I thought I'd update you on where we are on our Summer Fun To Do List.
I am really glad I did this because H.B.Nanna is holding me accountable for crossing things off our list.  I think we will pull it all off with the exception of picking berries.  We missed that.  But if that is all we don't get to do then I consider this a success.


Pick Berries
Watch Fireworks
Playdates
Farmers Market
Do A Color Run Race
Children's Museum
Make Ice Cream
Concert in the Park
Visit Aunt Erin and Baby E
Play Miniature Golf
Have Ice Cream for Dinner
Movie at the Beach
Play with Water Balloons
Swim at Nanni and PopPop's House
Go to the Zoo
 
 
How are you doing with your Summer Fun To Do List?

Thursday, August 8, 2013

Game Night

Last week H.B.Nanna randomly asked if she could stay up late and play a game with us. We thought board game, she thought video game and so there were tears. Lots of tears.
We settled on a Dora matching game. And I had Mommy juice. 
Sometimes 4 and a half year old crying fits can be draining!!

 
She had a lot of fun and kept asking when we could do game night again. 
 
 
Then Mommy won the game.
And there were more tears.
More 4 and a half year old tears with warnings not to wake her sleeping brother.
Never a dull moment!

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Careful What You Wish For...

As I blogged about not long ago, I was in need of something to focus on. Not that I am not devoting my time to my children and my husband but now that I am not working I felt like I was in need of something else.  What that else was, I wasn't sure of.

Well played karma.

In the matter of short time since I blogged about that, we have decided not to renew our lease in the home we are currently renting, found a new place to rent and are beginning the purging/selling/donating fun that is moving. And I use the term fun loosely.  I have always joked that I was never planning to move from this house because a) it is huge - 4,000 feet huge and b) there is going to be too much crap to move. But the idea of being 1 mile {yep, walking distance} from the beach is really appealing. It means downsizing in home space and crap but I am more then ok with that.  The bedrooms in the new house are what I am used to. I didn't grow up with rooms as large as H.B.Nanna and the Boy currently have. I mean really...I had a twin bed till I was in college.  I think H.B.Nanna will survive the downsize from double to twin!!

So we are busy. Summer is winding down and we are squeezing in guests, trips to visit my parents and all the beach time we can. H.B.Nanna starts pre-k the week before Labor Day. She is beyond excited even though she has been attending some summer camp at the school she attends so she keeps telling me she is already in pre-k.  Yes, Ma'am!

And the Boy is back to weekly PT appointments.  He is having some sensory issues that are {could be} affecting his ability to stand on his own and learn to walk. I am happy the PT is back to weekly.  As a parent you can only do so much to try and help your child. Then you feel like a schmuck when you tell the PT you are having trouble getting him to do certain things and she tries once and is successful. I think it will be good for both him and I. The sensory thing could be something more but it is really to early to speculate and honestly, Dr. Google has my brain fried.

So I guess I have lots to keep me busy now. Lesson learned...be careful what you wish for!

Sunday, July 21, 2013

Focus

I have a problem.  Not a serious, see a doctor or therapist problem. But a problem.
 
I know they say that after you spend months planning your wedding and the big day comes and goes, you find yourself in this awkward phase. Like you don't know what to do with yourself after you have become so accustomed to focusing on wedding planning. They also say that is when buying a home or having a baby becomes your next focus.
 
Well I am already married. I already have babies.  And we are in no position to buy a house. But I think I am going through something. So let me see if I can explain it.
 
For so long I focused on when my last day of work would be.  I wanted to get everything in order so that I could close everything up {rather} smoothly and I think that was a success. As soon as I was done work my focus shifted to the baby shower I was planning for my friend and the Boy's 1st birthday bash. Both went off well with only a few small glitches. I felt accomplished.  I pulled off 2 fairly big events only 3 days apart.
 
But now I have nothing I am planning.  I have nothing to direct my focus towards.  Don't get me wrong, my children and my husband are my priority but I feel like I am lacking something. I know I have only been a Stay-at-home Mom for a month now and that I am being to hard on myself {I know I am...at least I can admit it!} but I find myself looking for something to focus on.
 
For instance, this morning while both children were playing and the husband was reviewing the massive budget spreadsheet, I found myself searching the newspaper for a cool new year-round home to rent. Because packing up this large house and moving is something I {don't} need right now. I love the house we rent and people are always telling us how awesome our house is.  We even had a friend ask us to tell her if we wanted to move because she would like to rent it. But sometimes I think about how cool it would be to live a little closer to the beach {since apparently 6 miles is too far} and to have neighbors that we would actually get to know. It's like this giant gamble that I don't know if I am willing to take since things don't usually seem to work out in my favor.
 
I have an etsy store that I would like to grow and that I should focus on but something is lacking.  Sometimes I feel like I jumped into too soon and that I need to do some research and build stock before I move forward with it. Heck, I can't seem to give the stuff away sometimes. I don't think it is a quality issue but rather I am not reaching a target audience and there seems to be a lot of people out there that sell similar items. So focusing on that is something I need to do. But I feel like I am at a cross roads with it, keep it going or close up shop and call it a day.
 
Blogging should be a focus for me as well. At least that is what my Dad would say since he is always so kind to remind when I haven't blogged in a while. And I am really trying to get better at it. It is my place to talk openly and freely and I try not to worry about who is reading it and what they might think. I think I have gotten better with the opening up part since that was something I really struggled with when I started this blog 5 {good golly!!} years ago. I keep thinking that if I spend the money to have someone design a fancy layout that I may be more inclined to turn the computer on and blog more often. 
 
I know that this is all just a phase and something is going to come along or change that will drive my focus but I have to practice my patience which is hard for me. I tend to have an idea and jump into it. So in the meantime I am going to try and relax and enjoy not having anything "major" going on and focus on my family and enjoying what is left of the summer. 

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

The Boy is One - Part 2

Since the Boy is lucky enough to have a birthday the day before a big summer holiday he will probably grow up thinking he gets fireworks for his birthday.  At least that is what is sister thinks!
 
Seriously this girl cracks me up!
 
It took about 25 pictures to get a remotely good one.
Even if the Boy has devil eyes! 
 
Someone liked the fireworks {don't let the face fool you!}
Big Sister asked repeatedly to go home. She says she is staying home next year! 
 
On Saturday we had family and friends over for a Mickey birthday bash.
My good friend Sarah made this darling cake for the birthday boy. 
 
I love this and think they will find a permanent home in the playroom.  
 
The Boy wasn't feeling well and the crowd of people surrounding his high chair were a bad combination.  He wanted nothing to do with his cake. Poor guy! 

 
I am so sad that this is my last first birthday party that I will be planning.  Both of my babies had Mickey Mouse first birthday parties! That is called reusing some of what you already have!


Monday, July 15, 2013

Summer Fun To Do List

Since this is H.B.Nanna's first real summer at home I thought it would be fun to create a fun to do list for her.  Who am I kidding...it is to hold me accountable.  All those things I say "Yep, we'll do that one day. Maybe in a couple of weeks" ..but then we never actually do.  If it's written on the list we are going to do it.
 
Except berry picking.  I think we missed that thanks to the ridiculous amount of rain we have had.
 
So I got all Pinteresty and made a fun little chart that really looks like H.B.Nanna could have made it. But it works.

 
So what is on our list?
 
Pick Berries
Watch Fireworks
Playdates
Farmers Market
Do A Color Run Race
Children's Museum
Make Ice Cream
Concert in the Park
Visit Aunt Erin and Baby E
Play Miniature Golf
Have Ice Cream for Dinner
Movie at the Beach
Play with Water Balloons
Swim at Nanni and PopPop's House
Go to the Zoo
 

Friday, July 12, 2013

The Boy is One - Part One

 
Last week the Boy had his big birthday.  I can not believe that I have a 4 1/2 year old and a 1 year old. I love it! For his birthday we wanted to get him something cool that he could use for a while.  Honestly, I am not sure who liked it more....

 
 



We had a simple dinner since the birthday boy really wasn't feeling well.  There is nothing worse then being sick on your birthday!  Earlier in the day the Husband ran to the store and picked up a cupcake for the Boy to enjoy.  It was too dang hot to turn the oven on and the store's cupcakes where going to be cuter then anything I could muster.
 

 



 
A word of advice...don't mix orange and blue icing.  It is not a pretty color!
 
So this is part 1 of the Boy's birthday {it wasn't my plan for it to be a 2 part series} as there is a screaming Boy who has just woken from his nap!


Thursday, July 11, 2013

Adjusting

I knew that the adjustment from part-time working Mom to Stay-At-Home Mom would be just that..an adjustment but I don't think I fully grasped what it would be like.  Don't get me wrong, I am very happy with my decision.  I am just in an adjustment period that I don't think my brain was fully prepared for.

I think it has a lot to do with the fact that I finished working and jumped right into baby shower and 1st birthday party planning. We added in summer colds for everyone in our house and I found myself feeling busier then when I was working.  Now that the baby shower and birthday party are over, I am now finally starting to get this being at home thing.

I need to know...how do other Moms do it?  Yesterday neither of my darling children napped/rested resulting in lots of bickering and an early bedtime so the Husband and I could eat dinner in peace and quiet. I know I am not the first Mother to put her children to bed early so she can eat in peace.

Part of my struggle with the adjustment is trying to figure out how to get things done and keep the children occupied and out of trouble.  You know...eat, go to the bathroom, throw in a load of laundry, hold a telephone conversation {who am I kidding...no one calls anymore} send a text message or even fumble through the fridge/freezer to figure out what is for dinner.  I stress about H.B.Nanna watching too much tv and making sure the Boy gets the attention that he deserves.  It sucks when the day is over and I realize that my house is a disaster, the kids are bored and I am stressed.

All this while my husband works from home in our office/bedroom. He has been really good about this change. He helps with breakfast in the morning and will sit with the Boy if I want to use the bathroom alone. I am really trying to minimize my requests and keep the noise level to a minimum but some days are harder than others.

Sometimes I feel like I am expecting too much of myself.  I want my house to be on the cleaner side {though I can't vacuum during naps or a teleconference for the Husband}, I don't want to have to sort through the basket of clean clothes that need to be folded and I don't want my children to be stuck in doors all day {although the rain seems to be doing a good job with that!}.  And I don't want people to think that I don't do anything all day.  I think that is the hardest part so far.

I know it is summer and I know that this adjustment is going to take some time but most everyone that knows me will tell you that I sometimes need to practice my patience and not stress out over everything. It's so much easier said then done.

Friday, June 28, 2013

Summer is Under Way

I am unemployed and H.B.Nanna is done school.  There are sick germs cycling through the house. And next week I am hosting not one but two parties at my house. C.R.A.Z.Y.





Monday, June 10, 2013

Birthday Preparations

People tell you when you are pregnant with your first child that it goes fast. Before you know it, that child will be graduating from high school.  And you chuckle and think to yourself that they are crazy and that it isn't really like that.
 
I was one of those people. The one that chuckled. Now I am the advice giver. Why?  Because it really seriously goes fast. Like umm..hello...next month when I meet someone knew and they ask if I have children I will say "Yes, two children.  A four year old and a one year old."
 
So the Boy is just 23 days away from being one. Holy Sheets!! It's creeping up on me.

 
I had these invitations made on Etsy and printed at my local CVS.
 
We are having the party at our house with one of those bouncy things and a little pool for the kids. H.B.Nanna doesn't understand why her brother gets a bouncy and she doesn't.  I explained that that is what happens when your birthday is in January and his is in July.
 
I am planning some DIY party decorations since I will be decorating indoors and outdoors.
 

 

I had a friend cut the pictures so I can make the three prints for the wall.
 
But seriously am I really planning the Boy's first birthday party?!
 

Sunday, June 9, 2013

A New Chapter

I believe the saying goes when one chapter ends another begins. Or something like that. This week I close an important chapter in my life to start a new.  I am excited. I am nervous. I am scared.  But I am EXCITED.
 
For 6 years {1 month shy of 7 years} I have worked for a clinical research company on some really exciting clinical trials. And Thursday I will be logging off for the last time to spend my time with my babies.
 
It was a difficult decision but one we have been tossing around for awhile. I never imagined that I would be a stay-at-home Mom. I didn't think I would ever not want to work. But after discussing the logistics of it, it seems like it is really going to work for our family.
 
I am going to enjoy the time with my babies {they aren't really babies anymore..} but I know I will miss the people I work with.  I won't miss the stress of deliverables. I'll miss the paychecks and the "atta' boys" but the hugs and "I love you's" will make up for that.

It is hard walking away from something you like to do.  I can't say I LOVE it because I didn't always.  I think like is more realistic. I went to college to be a restaurant manager. And ended up working longer in clinical research then I ever worked in a restaurant.  Funny how that works, isn't it?!
 
I can't say that I am walking away forever. And we haven't really talked about how long I won't be working.  I can say {at least in my mind} it is for a few years.  I want to be a Room Mom. I want to chaperone field trips. I want to host play dates. I want to be able to take care of my babies when they are sick. I'm not thinking it is going to be easy. I know I will get frustrated. I am sure I will feel like I have no time for myself.  I am not thinking that this means my house is going to be sparkly clean. Nope. I am trying to be realistic about it. But I am really looking forward to what the future holds for me and my family.

Friday, March 29, 2013

Let's Play Catch Up

Good Golly!! It has really been a month since I blogged. Sometimes finding the time to sit and type is harder then you think. Why now? Oh the husband is picking up his race packet for a 5K tomorrow and not 1 but 2 children are napping. At 4 in the afternoon. Gosh do I love afternoon playgroups!!

So what is going on with us? Whelp, Stephen and I are one month into the Paleo diet. It was hard the first couple of days {with the carb withdrawal and all} but once I got over that hurdle it was much easier. I really don't miss the bread/pasta/rice belly bloat! I am down 7 pounds which I am happy about. A few more to go and I will be even happier. I do miss a cold glass of milk and a big bowl of pasta but I'm excited to be buying size small clothes again so I'll take it. And besides, it's ok to have a cheat meal every once in a while. {Ahem..like the pizza we are having for dinner tonight!}

Hanna B. Nanna is sight reading and spelling words like crazy. We are always hearing "What does this spell?" or "How do you spell.." and I love it! It means she is growing up but I love watching her brain process these things. This morning we did addition. Fresh out of the shower she was quizzing me on what 7+7 and 4+4 was. Her listening ears are a little clogged and she most definitely doesn't know the meaning of inside voice. AT ALL. But I suppose it is all apart of growing up!!

The Boy...well he is growing like a weed. Like just a few days shy of 9 months and wearing 12 to 18 month clothes. It's crazy! People are always stopping me to ask me how old he is. If I had a $1 for every person that doesn't believe me or wants to argue that he isn't 1 yet.... And he is crawling!! Army crawling for now but he is starting to figure out how to crawl the right way.

The Helmet? Oh the helmet...so a week was lost during the dreadful brochialitis/ear infection/teething sickness a few weeks back. The rule is if he has a fever then he doesn't wear the helmet. Whelp he ran some sort of fever for about a week. Then it was like starting over with the helmet. Basically, he hates it and doesn't want to wear it. Like wake up in the middle of the night and scream his head off until you take it off. Good times. So we are over it. And that makes me both happy and sad. Happy because we really don't have to deal with it much longer and sad because I feel like it didn't get the opportunity to do all the things it could have done.


4 going on 14??

I always knew I was meant to have a boy!

H.B.Nanna is getting good at her handstands!

Easter 2013
Yes...he really is 8 months, 3 weeks in this picture!

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Germs

I wrote this blog post in my head as I washed dishes and scrubbed the kitchen counter. That has been my life the last few days. Wash dishes. Wipe noses. Sanitize hands. Wash laundry. Give the sickies medicine. Sanitize hands. Keep the house quiet so that one awake child doesn't wake the sleeping child. Sanitize hands. Last week H.B.Nanna's teacher commented about all of the green snot on the playground. I joked that we had been lucky thus far. Then karma bit me in the arse. Thursday night Stephen returned from his business trip to a fussy, teething baby. Friday was more teething fun. Saturday I went for a relaxing pedicure. Only it wasn't that relaxing because the woman in the chair next to me talked my ear off. The entire time. She wanted to be my BFF. Gave me her business card and all. I just wanted quiet time. I returned home to a toddler who didn't feel well. That's where it all went down hill. H.B.Nanna started with a fever, runny nose and cough. The Boy started with it Sunday night into Monday morning. Here we are at almost noon on Tuesday and both children are still sick. H.B.Nanna is fever less but coughing and sneezing up a storm. The Boy is coughing and his two front teeth are minutes from breaking through causing an incredible amount of snot. I have cabin fever and Stephen is working. Good times. Stephen and I? We are praying they don't share with us. Hence the reason for super dry hands from all the hand sanitizer. And honestly, two sick children at one time just down right sucks! So apparently when I blog on my Nook, it is just one big paragraph. Sorry!

Monday, February 4, 2013

A Post Where I Talk About My Frustrations

We all get frustrated. 
Some more particularly at a certain time of the month others a little every day.
For me, I am a certain time of the month frustator {is that even a word?}
My husband may argue otherwise but I'm writing this blog post not him ;)
And it always seems to be that everything happens at once.
 
So here we are the end of the 4th day of the month and so far this month sucks.
 
I love my girl. With all my heart. I really do.
But H.B.Nanna has become a demon 4 year old.
You know...refusing to eat dinner. 2 nights in a row. 1 of those was in a restaurant.
We couldn't get out of the restaurant quick enough.
She now tells me that she likes Daddy better. I'm not a nice Mama.
My bad...but you still have to sit in timeout!
The things that come out of her mouth are baffling.
She doesn't learn it at home so I can only assume she is picking it up at school.
 
I know that we all live busy lives.
But is it that difficult to know what your child's winter coat looks like?
Yep. A child wore my daughter's winter coat home from school today.
Like, her parent(s) picked her up and took her home in a coat other then hers.
And my daughter went home with no coat.
I understand accidents happen. I really do. But it was freezing.
The thermometer in my car said ice. And my child had no coat.
Well she did actually. Mine. And then I was cold.
A 4 year old in Mommy's white coat. It was as scary as it sounds.
 
The Boy is adorable.
Every day I think that I am so lucky to be a boy Mama.
Today he had an x-ray for his hips.  The pediatrician is concerned that they may not be fused properly so we had an x-ray done just to be sure. It is fairly common with torticollis.
Now we wait to see what the x-ray says.
 
Add a husband who is traveling for work and it just gets better.
So when I hear "I like Daddy better" I have to explain that it is me or nada right now.
I understand he needs to travel.  It pays the bills and allows me to only work 2 days a week.
But  sometimes it is frustrating.
It's like the children know I am on my own and get in cahoots to torment me.
 
And Sean the Bachelor.  He is frustrating. 
Why do the Bachelors and Bachelorettes always fall for the crazies?
Can't they hear me yelling at the tv?!
 
All done. Glad that I got that out!
 

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Helmet

So the Boy wears a helmet. This isn't new.

It's a pain in the arse. This isn't new either.

We are all adjusting.  When we take it off of him, H.B.Nanna asks if his head is round yet. I tell her not yet but it's getting there.

People see him in his helmet and tell us how cute he is.  Of course he is, he's my son! ;)

The helmet makes his head stink.  It's different then formula neck. And not in a good way. Thank goodness he has started to like baths.

Today I found myself trying to explain to someone who had never met me {or my family} about the helmet and why the Boy wears one. I know why. But I found myself talking in circles. Like I didn't want to say the wrong thing to make her think badly about me because I have a child that wears a helmet. And as soon as the conversation was over, I regretted it.  I wish I had better explained it's purpose. Made her aware of it's seriousness. That my child doesn't wear a helmet because he is clumsy. A neurosurgeon prescribed it for medical reasons.

We are just over one month into his helmet wearing and it has changed us.  Changed our outlook on things.  Trust me, we are grateful for two healthy children. I try to remember that there are children out there who would rather wear a helmet then go through whatever they may be going through.

Monday, January 28, 2013

Some Old Pictures

Well if everyone else is doing it, I should too....
 
 
 March 2006 - about a week after we met.
One of the worst pictures of us..but then again there aren't many good ones.
We aren't photogenic.  
 
July 2006 - Bon Jovi at Citizens Bank Park
with my BFF 
 
October 2006 - The night we got engaged.
I was so mad at him for inisting on wearing that jacket.
Little did I know there was a ring in the pocket! 
 
September 2007 - me wear a bathing suit at a pool?!
No, I'll just sit here and drink wine.
 
February 2008 - My Bridesmaids and I before my Bachelorette Party 

 

Friday, January 25, 2013

At This Moment

At this moment I am trying to enjoy my final minutes of quiet before the
children wake from their naps.
Correction - before the little guy wakes since the sister is refusing to close her eyes.
No playing in the snow if you don't nap doesn't seem to bother her.
It makes me sad because who knows if we will get snow again
{one of the downfalls of living at the beach}
I'm sure she'll connive her way out there though ;)
 
At this moment the smell of sauce, gravy whatever you may call it is cooking away.
I am following the recipe from Ralph's Italian Restaurant out of Philly. Delish!
 
At this moment my head cold is starting to get to me. 
We were almost through a sickness-free January.
So so close and who knew I'd be the first to get sick.
Although the hubs may not be far behind since he just decided to go for a run.
It's 25 degrees out and should be snowing within the hour.
 
At this moment I stress about the corrective helmet and the idea that the
 Boy could need another one next month if he out grows this one.
Corrective helmets aren't cheap.
And they are supposed to last the 3 to 4 months that they are prescribed.
This Boy is a weed and growing fast.
 
At this moment as I sit here and type I think of the things I want to
do around the house today.
But alas, I know that I won't come close to getting them done.
Sitting on the floor playing toys with the Boy while H.B.Nanna plays in her
 Princess dresses is way more fun then folding laundry.
 
At this moment I wonder if I will ever make anything of my Etsy store.
I know if I put more effort into it that the chances might be better.
I just wonder if I jumped the gun and if it was a mistake.
 
At this moment my head is going in lots of directions.
Sometimes it is hard to turn it off.
Sometimes it makes it hard to enjoy life's little moments.
 
At this moment the Boy has waken and I must go cover him with kisses.
And maybe let sister get out of her un-slept in bed ;)
 
 

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Corrective Helmet Update

So when the Boy started with the helmet I had great hopes of frequently blogging updates and bringing awareness to them as they aren't just something they wear for fun.  But life happens and the blogging takes a back seat {see also my struggle with balance}.

So here we are nearly one month into the helmet and what an adventure it has been. In a perfect world, the helmet would fit wonderfully, your child would adjust well and before you know if the three to four months of wear would be over. In a perfect world.

In my world..the helmet was too tight from day one. He HATED it. As in tears and red {burn looking} marks all over his head. It was adjusted - a spacer was added and it fit much better. For a week. Now we at the point where it fits ok, not too tight, not too loose. It just fits. Some days he hates it. Other days he doesn't mind it. It all depends on the day really. Last night he was trying to push it off.

Overall we notice a difference in his head shape.  It is still flat in some spots but we knew going into this that his head would never be perfectly round. So it may just be that he can never shave his head when he is older.

The instructions with the helmet are 23 hours a day. One hour off for bathing/eating/whatever he needs. But lets be realistic...23 hours?  The helmet isn't light. It's not super heavy but it is big.  His head is big already so when you add the helmet to it, it is extra large. In the car he can't put his head back so it falls forward and stays there. I worry about additional neck issues so we have eliminated helmet wear in the car. The risk of further neck issues out weight the short time he is the car seat without the helmet. Call me crazy...

Developmentally, he is moving forward.  He has started rolling over.  Not as often as he could but he does it. Without the helmet. With the helmet, he really has no interest in rolling. The Boy has mastered sitting on his own.  He can sit for extended periods of time playing with toys in front of him and reaching for others. Without the helmet. With the helmet, he sits just not as well and not for long. The weight of the helmet makes his head fall forward and he has trouble holding it up. Tummy time is getting better.  He has started pushing himself up on his hands and knees which is awesome. Without the helmet.

This is where we struggle.  Do you push the helmet for a somewhat round head with the understanding that it will never be perfect and potentially delay him developmentally?  Or do you not push the helmet and let him develop naturally?  We struggle with this everyday. And we understand that as his parents we need to decide what is best for him.  But I can't help but think that if what we think is best now will really not be best years down the road?  Will he be mad that he can never shave his head?! Or if he does, that his head will be misshapen.  I am sure that shaving his head will be the least of his or our worries when he is older.

Day 1 of helmet wear
 
Day 19 of helmet wear

 
 
Today we go for a helmet adjustment.  The Boy is having redness around his right ear which is making the helmet uncomfortable for him.  At his last adjustment we were informed that another spacer can not be added as this will defeat the purpose of the helmet as the inside shape will be lost. Concern was expressed as it his highly unlikely that he will last the three to four months that the helmet was prescribed for.  I have to say that while I think that overall the helmet is a good thing, I find this process very frustrating. Very. 
 

Monday, January 21, 2013

5 and 6 Month Updates for the Boy

I didn't even realize I didn't post a 5 month update for the Boy. Bad Mommy!! ;)

 5 Months
 


Current clothes sizes -

jammies 12  months

6 -9 month onesies and bottoms
 
Size 3 Diapers
 
Height/Weight

At a doctors visit on 12/11 the scaled was tipped at nearly 21 pounds
and the Boy was 28 inches long!
 
Feeding -

5 tbsp of cereal at dinner, 4 tbsp of cereal at breakfast both with a fruit or veg,
then a fruit or veg for lunch
All stage 2 fruits and veggies - apples, bananas, peaches, pears, carrots, green beans, peas,
mixed veggies, mixed fruites
 
6oz bottles 3 times a day {give or take}, then 2 to 3 {2 to 3oz} bottles a day {usually with food}

Sleeping -

The mid-morning, early afternoon nap is still what seems to work for the Boy.
 
We've had a few rough nights lately and some early mornings!
 
Personality -

Such an easy-going little guy.
Loves to laugh and smile - especially at his big Sissy!

Development -

Tummy time is getting easier.
Sitting is lots of fun!
 
6 Months

 
 
Current clothes sizes -

jammies 12 months

9 -12 month onesies and bottoms
 
Size 3 Diapers

Height/Weight

21.84 pounds and 30 inches

Feeding -

5 tbsp of cereal at dinner, 4 tbsp of cereal at breakfast both with a fruit or veg,
then a full fruit or veg for lunch
All stage 2 fruits and veggies - apples, bananas, peaches, pears, carrots, green beans, peas,
mixed veggies, mixed fruites
 
The Boy loves puffs!!

6oz bottles 3 times a day {give or take}, then 2 to 3 {2 to 3oz} bottles a day {usually with food}

Sleeping -

Sometimes there is a pattern to the naps, other days - not so much.
We've had a few rough nights lately and some early mornings!

Personality -

Happy, giggly, smiley Dude.

Development -

Rolling over!!
Holding the botski all by himself
Sitting up all by himself {much better without the helmet then with}
Pushing up on his arms
There are 2 teeth and the top 2 are on their way!
All most one month into helmet wearing and not a fan.  Sleeps fine in it but doesn't like wearing it when he is awake.  Who can blame him?!
PT and OT visits are in-home now and he really likes it.  He is usually tired by the end of the hour but then a nice long nap follows :)

 

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Balance

Just like every other Mom out there I struggle to find balance. This isn't anything new to anyone.  Sometimes even those who aren't parents struggle to find balance.

My house looks like a bomb went off in it.  The sink has dishes.  The fridge needs stocking.  Laundry...don't even get me started on that.  H.B.Nanna's birthday presents are still piled high on the dining room table.

I did get my Christmas decorations down.  That's a positive.

I struggle to find time to blog.
I struggle to find time to be creative and stock my Etsy store.
I struggle to find "me" time. Pedicure, Girls Night Out..that sort of thing. 
Exercise?!  That seems impossible. But hello anniversary beach trip in 2.5 months.
I struggle to find some alone time with my husband.

When I do have a few minutes all I can think about is taking a nap or going to sleep.  I am fighting the nap urge as I type this.

It sucks.

I struggle to find that work, family, home and well just life balance.  I keep thinking there has to be an easy way to do this. I mean I do only "work" part-time.  Yep, only 2 days a week. But imagine working 2 days then having a 5 day weekend. Every week.  On paper it looks good, hell it sounds awesome, right?  Not really.  At the end of day 5 you have that "Oh shit moment" where you realize you have to work for a paycheck the next 2 days.  It's hard to turn your brain into work mode when it has been out of work mode for so long.  And as you are working, you spend your time thinking about all of the things you could be doing around the house and for your children.

The Hubs suggested we keep a detailed calendar blocking out hours of our lives for certain things.  I can't do it. Don't get me wrong, I am a planner.  Slightly OCD about having a schedule for the children and knowing what lies ahead for the next week or two.  But breaking it down by hour..every.single.day..is a stretch. Things happen to throw a schedule off. And then I will stress about it. And honestly...who needs more unnecessary stress in their life?  Not me.

So in the mean time I will continue to struggle to find balance. I will live in a messy house.  My blog will only see updates a couple times a month.  My Etsy store will remain barely stocked.  I will not be in shape for my anniversary trip.  I will continue to be tired. Laundry will continue to pile up.   But my children will be loved. And in the end...that is all that is important.

Saturday, January 12, 2013

H.B.Nanna is 4

 
Where does the time go?!
It seems like just yesterday I was having a baby girl at
35 weeks and 1 day.
 
 
It seems like just yesterday I was bringing home my beautiful preemie girl from the ICN after an 11 day stay.
It seems like just yesterday I was rocking her to sleep and singing You Are My Sunshine.
 
 
Now my baby girl is a thriving 4 year old.
She loves to "read" books.
 
 
She loves to play dress-up.
She loves her Baby Brother.
 
 
She is an awesome speller.
And she likes to do things her way.
 
 
Like any child this age, she has her good days and bad. 
Sometimes there are more good then bad..
I just try to remember she is only 4 and learning to express herself.
 
 
She is not a fan of time out..but who is?!
Often times her listening ears are broken but it doesn't seem to bother her ;)
 
 
This girl is awesome. I am so happy to be her Mamma.
 
 

I am truly blessed to have a daughter as sweet, caring, outgoing, funny and loving as my H.B.Nanna.