And sometimes it can be quite a long time before it happens. But when it does happen I find it hard to stop thinking about my family and the things I need to do at home. It’s hard to shut that part of my brain off.
Yesterday Stephen and I went to lunch together. No Hanna.
Last night we had dreams of watching a movie. Hanna never went to bed till 10 and I knew at that point I would not last through a whole movie. While I love my daughter more than life itself, I really miss my quite time at night before I am ready for bed. I loved the days when she was in bed at 8 and I could have a glass of wine and catch up on shows, blog, read a book, take a bath, whatever I wanted really. Now that it is 9:30 – 9:45 before she is asleep, I have traded my wine for cookies and milk in bed.
Today I am going for a pedicure. Or so that is the plan. I told Stephen I would wait till she was down for a nap. I need the time alone, even if it is only for 45 minutes. I need the time to recharge me. I don’t know how much recharging I can do in 45 minutes but something is better then nothing, right? I am going to try not to think about things at home. Maybe I will take my Nook.
All I know is that I am really looking forward to it. Like really looking forward to it!